Hui, like most adoptable children in China, was found.  He was left behind this school.

He was meant to be found.  I asked our guide why mothers didn’t take their babies to the orphanages rather than leave them somewhere, especially when it is obvious they want them to be found.  He explained that orphanages won’t take babies if parents bring them in.  If parents can be found, they are expected to care for the children.  So the parents aren’t left with many good options.

It is hard to express what emotions overwhelmed me while I looked at this spot.  I wondered if his mom lived nearby.  I wondered if we may have passed her on our way here.  I let my heart break for her as I envisioned her walking away from a 2 month old baby, knowing he would be alone and not knowing for how long.  I let my heart break for Hui, as I wondered how long he was there without anyone to hold him, comfort him, and let him know he would be okay.  We know the police were called and they were the ones who delivered him at the orphanage.  I pray the Lord can heal the hurt, for all the parties involved, that occurred in that spot.  I wish I could tell Hui’s other mother that I will do my best.  That I will love him and care for him and be his mother, just as if he came from my body.  I wish I could tell her that he is laughing and smiling.  This was a much more emotional spot for me than the orphanage.  As I held my babies in my lap (I stayed in the van because both kids had fallen asleep on me) I was so thankful for my children and so sad for their birth families and for all they have lost.

Tomorrow will be a happier post, but this one deserved its tone.  Thank you for loving my family enough to let me share the good and the bad.  And I am so thankful for the good:  Titus Hui has a forever family!

4 thoughts on “Found”

  1. I hope real men cry sometimes because tears are on my cheeks as I read this. Thanks for sharing your heart, Amy.

  2. …and provide for those who grieve in Zion (or China)–to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor. Isaiah 61:3

    Praise God and his infinite mercies

  3. i love you amy. i love you and your family. so much that my heart breaks with yours. i cannot wait to love on you all in person when you’re home. thank you for taking the time to keep us all in the loop!

  4. Hi, Amy, I saw one of your posts on the Yunnan Yahoo group and got to your blog. We were in Kunming in March 2009 picking up our then almost 4-yr old daughter. She was found at 5 days old on a riverbank across from a huge apartment complex. I wondered the same things you did about who her mother was and felt the same emotions. I still get emotional when I think about her being left by a river; her biological mother has missed out on an incredible little girl! We really loved Kunming.

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